Time

The house is quiet

My love by my side

The children asleep

All dreaming their dreams

I lay awake and uneasy

My hazy dreams replaced with lucid thoughts

My peace replaced with worry

How much is left of this thing called time?

A day? A week? How many months or years lie ahead?

I ponder this as I listen to my wife breathing deeply in her dreams

I think of my children

Four children. Four dreams

How much of their future will I share?

My own mother and father gone too soon

So many years away from the family still here

So much I’ve wasted

So much time now in the past

Just one more hug. Just one more conversation

But time moved too fast

The words came too late

Regret is nobody’s friend

Yet it never leaves your side

The time behind is gone

The time ahead unknown

The present quickly slips by

Gone too soon if I let it

What will I do with it?

Let it go without saying a word?

Take hold of it and savor every moment?

It’s not for me to say

Only time will tell

12 thoughts on “Time

  1. Ben,

    Love, love, LOVE THIS!

    I realize this might seem a little “cheesy” at first, but after a few minutes… TRY to just open your mind, your heart and realize the eternal depth of your genetic and timely connection with Tracy and your childred. It is the Legacy you not only started, but also leave behind… when your time here is spent/done… what will matter most are those memories, those EMOTIONS that stir when your biological creations (with Tracy) live on. Just think about that.

    When I was watching my infant daughter, then 7-years later my infant son sleep in their cribs, those MOMENTS, those days with them were going to resonate — good, bad, joyous, painful, and laughing — would rest in THEIR memories. Make sure you embrace EVERY FREAKING SECOND OF IT!!!! Because THAT is what this life is all about my friend. ❤

    This is the song that slapped hard all of this into reality for me, to just… LOVE IT:

    Hush now don’t cry
    Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
    You’re lying safe in bed
    It was all a bad dream
    Spinning in your head
    Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
    Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
    So here it is, another chance
    Wide awake you face the day
    Your dream is over

    Or has it just begun?

    There’s a place I like to hide
    A doorway that I run to in the night
    Relax child, you were there
    But only didn’t realize it and you were scared
    It’s a place where you will learn
    To face your fears, retrace the years
    And ride the whims of your mind
    Commanding in another world
    Suddenly, you hear and see
    This magic new dimension

    I will be watching over you
    I am gonna help you see it through
    I will protect you in the night
    I am smiling next to you, in silent lucidity

    Visualize your dream
    Record it in the present tense
    Put it into a permanent form
    If you persist in your efforts
    You can achieve dream control
    Dream control
    How’s that then, better?
    Dream control
    Dream control (hug me)
    Dream control
    Hug me

    If you open your mind for me
    You won’t rely on open eyes to see
    The walls you built within
    Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin
    Living twice at once you learn
    You’re safe from pain in the dream domain
    A soul set free to fly
    A round trip journey in your head
    Master of illusion, can you realize
    Your dream’s alive, you can be the guide but

    I will be watching over you
    I am gonna help you see it through
    I will protect you in the night
    I am smiling next to you

    The song comes next… 🙂

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    1. Thanks. I’m not much of a poet, but I am a sentimental fool. I want to cherish every moment here with my family, but I know so much time isn’t being spent wisely. There’s no reason I can’t change that though.

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    1. Got all those things pretty well covered. I always hug them tight and tell them I love them. So much that they are probably thinking, “Okay, okay Dad I get it.” As far as life insurance goes, I have more than enough. In fact, with all the life insurance I have, I’m surprised my wife hasn’t taken me out yet. 🙂

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